Five weeks to go......

Five weeks to go......or Five days to go.......or crud, even 5 minutes. Three weeks ago, Doc said, "I don't think you'll make it to 35 weeks, she's too low, totally dropped and with the contractions you are already having, chances are good you'll go before". Along with that came the fact that I wouldn't be able to deliver at my hospital, I'd have to go to a hospital that specializes in premature babies, a hospital with a good NICU. But, she put me on disability, 1/2 time bed rest and here it is, I'm about 35 weeks along and we are no more progressed then we were 3 weeks ago. That's determination. I'm determined to keep this baby in me until at least 35 weeks, but would love to at least go until 38 weeks. The problem with all this is that time has really SLOWED down. When you go to bed every night wondering "will this be the night" time seems to drag by. These next few weeks will be long and agonizing. I would like to say, "Ok kid, I'm done, I'm ready", but for her sake I'd like to keep her in as long as possible. We are as ready as we can be. All clothes are washed, crib and craddle are ready to go, house is clean, binkies, bottles, diapers, all in their place. The only thing we need to do now is pack a bag. (I figured maybe, just maybe, if I didn't pack, it wouldn't happen...ha-ha). I am miserable, fat, swollen, and in a lot of pain. With her being so low comes cramped, sore legs, constant pain in my pelvic area and the need to ALWAYS go to the restroom. I can hardly walk and I get tired very easy. But, I can do this........every mom does. So, here we go, the final stretch...................